Lighthouse hunting…
3 months ago
Timeless moments and soulful expressions of my wonderful journey through life with family, friends and everything that matters... Snapshots of the many faces, emotions and glimpse of my ever-changing moods. I am not perfect and I don't try to be. I live to live, I laugh, I cry and I love. I look forward to today and enjoy every moment so I don't live to regret. -----NonetteSummer


This is a typical crosswalk in the city where I grew up. This is early in the day so it's not crowded yet. In other parts of the world some people take their sweet time crossing the crosswalk while you sit there watching their sashaying rears reach the other end of the street. Why can't people hurry up instead of walking like they have all the time in the world? Where I come from, if you don't hurry you get run over. Streets are for motorized vehicles not for walking so in a sense, it's a privilege to be given the chance to cross the street on foot. We hurry up to walk to the other side of the street so we don't detain the people that's waiting for us to cross.People in cars have places to go too......
It's ironic that the toughest job in the whole world can be so rewarding and satisfying at the same time. When I was growing up, the notion of becoming a mother was as far away from my mind as my dreams of ever getting out of my surroundings and comfort zone. Granted that my mother has imperfections, I told myself that I can never be as good as a mother like she is and still is. Fast forward to more than a decade later I find myself in a role in life that I don't have a map or detailed instructions on how to be. I thought it can't be that bad seeing myself as very adaptable and pliable if you will to changes and challenges. I felt a bit scared at first because I don't know if I am doing the same thing that my mother does and I don't know what is going to happen next. Though I have the loving and wholehearted support of my better half, it's still a bit disconcerting to know that I don't know what the future lays ahead. The role of being a mother have brought so many changes in my life. I never thought of all the things that my mother went through till I have become one. Some might say,be careful how you treat your mother,it will come back to haunt you sooner or later....after all it's a circle of life. I don't think I gave my mother a hard time but then again, that's just how my mother was and still is. She makes me feel like I wasn't anything but the good kid. I don't feel spoiled by my parents but I do feel that I have the best childhood with them inspite of the day to day hurdles we as a family experienced. Now looking back at my childhood, I wonder if my son would ever feel the same way. I strive to be the best mother that I could possibly be for him yet sometimes I felt inadequate compared to my mother. I have to worked on my patience more, I have to keep my ears open and listen more, I have to make minimal demands to what my son can do and I have to do all the things that I think will be best but to me these are all unrealistic especially in today's tired, hungry, frustrated, 40++ hours working mother. It takes a lot to balance career and motherhood. Life today is very different than what my mother has been through while we're growing up. The whole world is changing with so many technological gadgets and discovery that creates a whirlwind of distractions for our kids. And the changes are more pronounced especially coming from a little place in the island. I am finding that being a mother is hard and tough job, it has its rewards and satisfactions. I will do it my own way and enjoy the rewards and satisfaction I can get however big or small they might be. I will be content on being myself, after all, I am not my mother. I never go on a day without an all-knowing argument about this or that especially now that he's getting bigger,growing and knowing more each day. Still it is very comforting to know and hear my son say, I love You,Mom! GoodNight and Sweet Dreams ---and that just warms my heart!
